As a trauma survivor, the fact remains that there is a lot of fear that lives in my body still. The body remembers and holds […]
Category: Sobriety
Happy Hurts Sometimes
Today was one of those days where it all sort of hit me. Experiencing happiness sometimes hurts. A person can become accustomed to being shit […]
I Write the Most When I’m Unhappy
Ya know, this is a thing I’ve noticed about myself: I write the most when I’m unhappy. Writing has always been my way to release […]
The One Where They Went Hard on Matthew Perry For Slurring His Words
If you haven’t heard yet, Friends is having a reunion. There was a promo released recently that has people all fired up. Well, I’ll just […]
There’s No Such Thing as a Dragon…Or Is There?
In a very difficult therapy session this week as I was diving into some things from my teen years, my therapist mentioned this story called […]
The Yellow Curry Story
I used to love yellow curry. I tried it once at a friends house and I was immediately hooked. I would order it anytime it […]
A God Shot Straight to the Heart
If you don’t know what a God shot is, it’s a term used in recovery: “A God shot refers to an unexpected favor or a sign. The […]
2 Years Sober
I freaking did it! Today marks the 2 year anniversary of the day I decided to get sober and work every day at staying sober. […]
Strangely Insane
I was reading last night with my sponsor and this grouping of words caught my attention: Strangely Insane. It was being used to describe alcoholics […]
Wake Up Hollywood Interview
I had the pleasure of being interviewed by NIKHIL KORULA on an episode of Wake Up Hollywood last night. I shared some aspects of my […]
Trying to Keep an Open Mind
I’ve been quiet lately. Why? Because I’ve been going through a lot. That’s an understatement really. It’s been wave after wave of stuff and things […]
Popping Bottles are a Trigger
Well I discovered a new trigger this past Sunday – apparently hearing bottles of champagne pop gets to me…..like a lot. In my heavy drinking […]
My Advice, Stop Digging
Watching a show on Netflix called The Queen’s Gambit. Her friend visits her after not having seen her for many years: “Lets look at where […]
Trying to Forgive My Addict Self
So I realized something recently about myself that needs to be addressed and worked on – forgiving my addict self. By that I mean the […]
Grey Goose Dirty Martini Fantasy
After particularly long days, I find I am vulnerable to certain thoughts and ideas. Today is one of those occasions. I’ve been working 10 – […]