I wrote this poem recently while processing some heavy things. You see, I have this tendency to pull at strings. I get these ideas and […]
Author: Nicole
I Love Breakup Songs – Part 2
I was checking my blog analytics to see what posts people have loved the most. To my surprise, it was my I Love Breakup Songs […]
New Year, New Stuff and Things
Well, here we are….again. Another new year. I always go into each new year with a certain amount of optimism. This year, I don’t have […]
Strangely Insane
I was reading last night with my sponsor and this grouping of words caught my attention: Strangely Insane. It was being used to describe alcoholics […]
Wake Up Hollywood Interview
I had the pleasure of being interviewed by NIKHIL KORULA on an episode of Wake Up Hollywood last night. I shared some aspects of my […]
I Feel Like I’m Playing Whac-A-Mole
I put the quarter in and it was really fun at first. The little moles would pop up and I’d push them down. Another would […]
I’m Someone Right Now That I Don’t Want To Be
I’m someone right now that I don’t want to be. I’m skeptical of everything. I’m constantly on edge. I can’t relax. I’m worried. I’m scared. […]
Trying to Keep an Open Mind
I’ve been quiet lately. Why? Because I’ve been going through a lot. That’s an understatement really. It’s been wave after wave of stuff and things […]
Popping Bottles are a Trigger
Well I discovered a new trigger this past Sunday – apparently hearing bottles of champagne pop gets to me…..like a lot. In my heavy drinking […]
My Advice, Stop Digging
Watching a show on Netflix called The Queen’s Gambit. Her friend visits her after not having seen her for many years: “Lets look at where […]
The Empty Light Green Room
So I had a meltdown in therapy recently all over an empty light green room. That probably doesn’t make a whole lot of sense, so […]
Growing Your Hair Out Teaches You Patience
About 2 years ago I did something pretty drastic to my hair. On a whim, I decided to chop all my hair off and go […]
Poem: I’m not a Victim, I’m a Survivor
I’m not a victim, I’m a survivor. Abused and beaten down But I lifted myself up I’m not a victim, I’m a survivor. Addicted and […]
I Have Trust Issues
That’s right, I said it! I have trust issues. Let me repeat that again for those in the back – I….HAVE….TRUST….ISSUES. I am your classic […]
Trying to Forgive My Addict Self
So I realized something recently about myself that needs to be addressed and worked on – forgiving my addict self. By that I mean the […]